The Last Call: Hidden in Plain Sight by Onidas J. Beaudin - HTML preview

Our Emoting Nature

There was a time not so very long ago, when a young person didn't have much to look forward to in life.  When people in general didn't live all that long as we do now in modern times.

Growing up seeing people of the village and loved family members die of seemingly simple coughs or even a bad cut that festered in a child.  A very real feeling of pressure builds that time was always running out but having nowhere to go, and nothing to do.  Growing old was not something to plan for or rely on.  It was more likely to die young with something not very pleasant with no real help at all.  As the closest thing to a doctor was someone with hot water in a dimly lit bedroom, trying to feed you an herb broth as you withered away.

This way of experiencing life was accepted, and the few that made it further than that were the exception.  The ones to beat the odds and live past the expected, what was their quality of life?  Was that something to strive for and look forward to?  I think not.

With this outlook on life knowing that you will die long before you have had a good chance to experience life being hungry, cold and left on one’s own for the majority of your time here.  Living in a muddy village that seemingly has no real purpose other than to find food and survive.  One must start to think about how they would rather die than to slowly wither in a bed after a short, saddened young life.

When you are young and full of life.  It might be better to swing an axe and JOIN in something bigger than yourself.  To learn things like honor, discipline, comradery and riding the biggest, strongest steed that froths at the mouth, lurches this side to that and fearing you cannot control him but you do, because you have become friends!  You have built a deeper understanding of one another you and this beast you ride and are going to face death together!

Charging through an army that is there to challenge everything you stand for!  Battling every deep fear you have and every limitation, pushing through to beat the challenge and clash with an army that's there to kill you in any way possible.  Defending behind you is your comrades, who are also your deepest family and an entire people whom you call your own!  This is an acceptable way to die!  If one fails in this swirling melodrama of experiencing love, connectedness, purpose, truth, strength and conquering your own inner battles and must leave this world, then what better way than this!!??

Atop your half-tamed steed, a silhouette on a cliff side looking out over the horizon at an unknown future with NOTHING to lose. THIS definitely does look much better than dying sickly, young after a poor life.

So the wars are born.  Ideas are made of threats to your people and taking from your enemies what was always meant to be yours by a birthright of some kind!   ....and your enemy is in the same inner place of an idea about life as you.  This conflict becomes an agreement to clash!  This agreement to experience life in this awe-struck way that no one can truly imagine.  The experience of such a thing could never be described to another with words.  Only when in the thick of it with horses and blood and the chilling sounds of steel and death, that you look through the chaos to someone you know deeply that you are connected to. A brother or an uncle you've always respected. To make that eye contact.  Then and only then can it be communicated and shared without a word.  That is Emoting!  That is a language that we have as human beings.

Growing up now in this world of young people training to a purpose!  To a future that may be short still, but has a life to getting there with.  Learning some deeper meanings of truth, love and connectedness.  A wife experiences her husband as provider and protector of home, family and people.

All this amazing experience in truth is built upon the ridiculous idea of going to people you don't know very well, that live on the other side of the mountain and killing them....  and hopefully not getting killed yourself, but if you do get killed...  well you were going to die anyways and what a better way to go.

This simplified version sounds stupid, but the complicated drawn out human experience version only makes sense with emotions as an integral part.

The fact is that we as humans have done this since the beginning of our existence and are still doing it.  We are still doing these wars on an individual basis as well as globally. Just that today we do it against our neighbors, families, coworkers and strangers. We feel alone, disconnected, empty... the fulfilling experiences and emotions of the original purposeful actions of emotion are gone.

The ideas of a fuller experience of life in the facing of the fact of death.  The passing down of training from fathers and uncles has stopped.  The schooling and discipline from mothers to daughters has ended long ago. Young people still need and want that deeper truer experience to our existence and are left to make it up on their own in gangs on the streets, or in the dark manipulating torture that is an Ivy League boys groups way of life.  What have the wives to look in their husbands?  How does this way of being affect their home, family and people?

Our human experience, the depth of our emotions and the diverse complexity of what we can feel may be completely limitless.  This is what makes us unique to all other beings of this world and any other.  We even line up emotionally and feel what another is feeling in order to understand more clearly.  Even if it’s a TV show, or a roller coaster ride movie.  We feel with the characters and experience their situation in that fantasy world from our own living rooms without going anywhere.  Ensuring that experience of depth of feeling can be more important than death for a human being.

If we as human beings were only intellectual it would only make sense to let someone die if there is danger to losing your own life.  Just step back out of the way...  Not us...  Squish! We both die!  It is emotions that make us act and do things that intellectually doesn't make any sense.  This must be a very interesting study for a race from other than humans.

We build our homes and decorate them inside based upon how we feel and how it makes us feel. A picture, a color, the setup of the place inside makes us feel a certain way...  so we like it, or we don't like it until we change it and we feel better.  How we feel disrupts our lives, makes our decisions, plans out our paths, makes who is in our lives or not, or what we do for entertainment.

If you feel you are more a person that is intellectual and not based on feelings and maybe this doesn't apply to you so much.  I ask you to see how much your decisions on anything and everything in life is based upon "you don't like," or "you do like” to be able to decide whether of these two you have a subtle pause first and that pause is checking how you feel.  From there, you intellectualize where you are going and organize it and such in a mental way.

There is no judgment on intellectualizing or feeling. I'm just wanting us on the same page.  One does not come before the other. I'm wanting to show as a human race that this "ability" of emotions is unique. This "power" we have is MUCH more important and true to us in every day of our lives than we are aware of, because it is so integrated into us.  Most the time we don't even notice it.

Strangely, on this earth feeling or showing emotion is the one thing we as humans try not to do openly.

When we watch a movie, there is an "actor" who is acting or "pretending" in a way to evoke an emotion upon the human viewer.  We as the viewer align with the one "pretending" to be feeling something at the moment. Whether it be intense violence, or heart felt love.  Doesn't matter it’s all emotions and feeling.  The best actors "become" the role they are playing, and FEEL the emotions of the character that is being portrayed to us... Then WE feel it too.

In today's world we have this belief that we are completely separate from one another.  Aside from being attached to family, persons and things.  Otherwise we are in our own separate shells of our bodies and minds that we walk along in.  It is solitary, confined and private in there.

As humans we can align with feelings.  We think we are in our own private world inside ourselves.  If we exhibit our emotions openly and freely, subtly we KNOW others will be able to align with us by feeling what we are feeling and know our private world.

Our inner world is private because of the change from a true sense of connectedness, love, honor, humility, fear, strength, self-conquering, etc...   to this modern world of individuals trying to teach themselves these amazing deep limitless experiences. Without our fathers, or mothers and the ones before us passing it on to us of how to follow that line.  That line that we can follow that brings us to those connected emotions.  Those true emotions that make us human.

There has been a twisted sense of things based on what we need as humans.  It is like a food we need to have for our emotions.  That is why we have "entertainment" of all and of any kind.  It is to placate our need for a truer deeper experience of emotion and feeling.  To placate us so we feel like we can rest now, and we no longer keep looking deeper.  Even going for a walk is emotional entertainment.  Looking at the trees, breathing the air, all of it makes us feel what it does.  We calm down and feel refreshed.

Emotion is an "ability" or "power" that we have.  Once we have that true knowledge from within ourselves, where the emotions originate from and of what emotions are.  We can then direct them properly and truthfully.

That's what "Truth" is.  Truth is not from the mind.  That's why we can’t understand a parable or teaching properly from the mind until we feel it.  Truth is emotion, not mental thought and judgment.  The teacher is using the mind to extend an emotion. The mind and emotion, are two different languages.  The listener is receiving with his mind and his mind doesn't know how to translate it to the "language" of the emotion.  The mind is needed to direct emotion.  Like a funnel, or a pushing motion.  The mind moves it for us.

The emotional "language" can be specific to details that can never be with the mind.  When an emotion is shared of its truest sense... It is the two young men in the battlefield that gain eye contact from across the fighting, chaos and death! They KNOW beyond anything without words an understanding.  They aligned the emotional "language" to each other that tells them everything.  Truth.  There is no lie in the emotional language.

Each of us as a human being if we know what emotions are meant for can be an individual superpower. Us as a group that aligns to the same emotion can direct this power to a common need for all.

What I'm saying now to you is that emotions are nothing of what we are used to thinking they are.  Emotions have been made into a secondary thing we have that has very little meaning or say in our lives. That feelings are fleeting and not truthful.  This has happened to us because we have never known or understood what the emotions are or what they really do.  We have not understood how incredibly unique we really are, and emotions is what makes us that way.

I'm not speaking of the weeping, sloshy and messy kind if emotions, although you will have to go through that type of emotion to get to the emotion I am speaking of.  Rid your mind of what emotional language may mean to you, and start fresh, and open to be able to understand me now.

I am speaking of the deeper emotions we have.  These have rarely been tapped by humans, but when they have been there have been legends born and written about through the ages.  These emotions are solid and healthy.  They know what they are.  They are whole and complete in themselves.  They are sitting within us waiting to be used as a tool and a language.  They are strength beyond what we can dream.  These emotions can be expressed using sound and/or body language but not a requisite.

Like the men in the battlefield needed nothing but the connection to each other to communicate emotionally.

They were standing in Truth.  They stood in that moment completely in the present, without wavering for a time.  Time stood still with no movement.  For them there was no time.  What was around them no longer meant anything.  None of it had meaning anymore it was just happening around them, surrounding them.  In that place they were in even if it was just for a moment was great power!  More power than what has ever been created in all of creation.

Does this power we have, have the power to stop the machine of the fountain itself?  If it can be there in a fleeting moment, does it not say that regardless of how we get there or for how long it is there for us!?  It is within us!  If we could exist in this paradigm completely without it being by chance. If we were arriving at this experience of existence at will just because we know where it is within us.  We could go to that place within and become that power that we are and direct it.  Emotion is Truth.  This power cannot be misused.  Could we be free like the tall white robed man that pulled me from the fountain?  Is he even a man?

The fountain fills all of the realities besides this one we experience.  If we did stop the fountain wouldn't that effect much more than just “here” and our experience.  I think that is why we are protected from ones who would like us humans destroyed.  We are more than just a curiosity.

Sounds like something that is beyond anything that we can do any time soon.  Well...  this change is the change we are expected to do.  This is what this book is about.  This is what the Last Call is about.  That's exactly what The Last Call is, it’s the last one.  Last time to board the train...  The train going to the new existence for all of us.