The Last Call: Hidden in Plain Sight by Onidas J. Beaudin - HTML preview

Illusion and Reality

There can be a fine line between Illusion and reality.  In our lives we have a large mixture of both.  We have our projections on others and our world. We also have the projections on us from others and our world.  All of these seem to be very real.  None of them are at all.

We do our daily life living in this world of projecting.  Somehow in there sorting out who it is that we are.  If we are projecting on someone we are also identifying with that projection as who we are.  That is why we are projecting, because we believe strongly enough in an illusion that we send it out to another.  It’s almost like a calling card.  It’s like we are sending out a piece of what we believe to be true in order to make a stamp on someone else to abide by.   This shows there is control in this as well.  I can say that the projection is an illusion because if it were truth there would be no need to project it anywhere.  Truth just is, and little to do with anyone except yourself.

As a recipient of projection like we are talking about we have many inner experiences and choices.  First, we can talk about the experience of being projected on to.  I'm sure most people have had this experience and understand what this can feel like.  This you may be relating to is when someone has pissed you off and you “know” it has more to do with the projector than you.  Usually in a personal relationship issue.  I am not getting into psychiatry or relationship issues.  I am bringing you somewhere you may be able to relate to what I'm saying so you can follow.

Having someone project on to you can be obvious.  It can be hurtful because it is not how you see yourself, and someone is telling you, you are what they see.  It is at these times we see projection very clearly, and easily.  These projections are not congruent with how we feel about ourselves inside.  When it is thrown at you it doesn't fit in your mold.  It’s almost like it doesn't fit so it bounces off.

That's when it becomes an obvious projection from another.  It’s what they think, or what they want truth to be of you.  It comes from a need they have that has very little to do with you, yourself.  This causes a lot of immediate inner revelations, and usually is the start of the end of the relationship.  The one receiving the projection realizes the other “does not really know them” and starts to fade from the connection they've have with that person.

The fact is that your own projections caused this.  All of us are in this world of projecting.  The projections go back and forth like wildfire.  It just happens you noticed this one, and that person is terrible, and projecting on you.  This can and has gone on for thousands of years.  Is this the experience you want to exist in.  You think this blindness, blame and dark fantasy existence will get you to the last day?

This kind of projection scenario is a bit more recognizable for people because we get very involved in a coupled relationship.  More so than other types of relationships.  We put ownership on another person and expect them to carry things out in the correct way or we stab and punish them for it.  That's why I used this example first.  I apologize for bringing something so dark feeling.

The not so easily seen projections are everything else we do. The other projections we do is pretty much every aspect of our lives.  We just don't see them so much.  It’s pretty hard to use an example of something you don't really see.

We go to the store, and project on the clerk of who she is, and what their worth is.  We see children playing doing something we don't like and project on the parents of who they are, what they live like and their morals.  A mass blanket of a picture on a whole group of people and situations.  This is done in the blink of an eye.

Nothing at all to do with them.  It is a wrongful projection of your own judgments on others.  They are none of these things you have projected.  This controls and directs your life.  To be sure to no good at all.  This is what happened from the example of a relationship that was recognized on that one time and never forgiven.  We do it all day, on everyone and everything.  It all leads to nothing good.

The girl at the checkout feels and perceives your projection.  She has a choice of what to do from there.  We are so conditioned she will most likely accept your judgment and projection as true rejecting her own ideas and building a self-persona and image on everyone who comes through that check out today... and every day.

One of the key points in this scenario is “rejecting her own ideas”.  It is deciding what you know about yourself matters less than what others tell you about yourself.  This is an example of how we get buried.  This is a way we all lose ourselves and who we are.  There is no possible way another can tell you who you are.  Only you can.  What they are telling you is only about themselves in their projections.  It isn't even about you in the first place. Yet taking it on as who we are.  That small voice inside is who we are.  It gets smaller and smaller as it gets buried in this soupy fog bank.

The other key point in this example is “choice”.  We have a choice of our experience of the people coming through the checkout and their projections.  It’s very much like someone offers you a bag of dog poop, and you decide if you would like to take that or not.  If you decide to take the persons garbage you will tidy the little bag up and store it inside yourself somewhere.  We have essentially taken someone else's problems and feelings.  We think these are true of us because of the projection.

When we take too much of other people’s garbage on as our own it will be almost impossible to discern the difference between who you are and where all these other people’s ideas are.  These feelings and ideas are swirling within yourself.  It’s hard to decide how you even feel.  A huge amount of the feelings you have aren't even yours.  They belong to someone else.  It can get very confusing.  You just choose to take it with you and carry it around.

Now imagine if this did not occur at all.  When someone decided to dump their garbage to you and you politely said no you know who you are.    They could keep it with them.  If no one else's garbage was within your being.  Just you and how you feel.  How clear and strong that would be.  Very little confusion.  If there is confusion, it would be because you are actually confused about something.  Not a general everyday confusion swirling around.  There is a genuine feel for one’s self.  You are the only one in yourself.  Decisions are made by you.  Not what other people have placed on you.  When something tries to enter into that place within you It is very apparent immediately.  It does not feel like you.  It feels like someone else.  The discernment between yourself and another's projection is very easy to spot.  This makes it easy to keep it out too.

When the garbage we carry around with ourselves isn't our own it is very hard to remove, or release.  We try and sort out a feeling, or issue within us and we try to see where it fits.  In order that we can heal it and release it.  If we find where it fits in our hurts and scars we can then work on healing it.

If the issue isn't your own.  If the issue is something that has been projected on to you.  The issue then has nowhere that it fits in you because it didn't come from you.  The feeling or issue has nowhere to go and makes you feel like you can’t help yourself.  So it remains in you and causes turmoil that you can’t fix.  When you realize it isn't your feelings but someone else's that you have taken on as your own it is very easy to throw it out like trash.  It doesn't belong to you.  Once you can tell the difference of what yours is and what is not, you can begin clearing this out very quickly.

This is a very important step in you clearing away the layers of fog.  The fog hides yourself from yourself and others.  Decide to start sorting what feelings inside you are yours, or someone else's.  These feelings have been given to you.  You graciously took on these feelings as your own.

Once you can tell the difference its easy.  Just sit and “feel” yourself.  Feel who you are.  Get a certain grasp on what it is that you “feel” like.  Then when an emotion, fear or reaction to something comes up compare it to the feeling you found of yourself.

Does that emotion or feeling have that feeling of you in it?  If it doesn't feel like you get rid of it!  It doesn't belong to you and is garbage.  Just let it go and forget about it.  That's why it doesn't feel quite right.  You may even recognize the feeling of who it came from.  Just know, that we all do this to each other.  No one has “done” something to you.  It just is and we are changing that.

What we are doing is removing our illusion of what this world is, and what our part is in it.  When all that is left within you is yourself you have created a new being for yourself to experience.  From this clear, strong, solid place within you it is much easier to Join with the One of who you are.  That One who views everything through your eyes with no attachment or fear.

A reality of our world is we are doing this to each other continuously.  Without stopping.  It has become how we exist here.  Blame, finger pointing, no self-responsibility, projecting on to others our fears and judgments.  When another person has very little to do with you.  Very little.  Except they have incarnated here around the same time as you have.  That's pretty much it.  That includes your mother and father.  Do you think they really had much to do with your birth?  In truth you just came here.  Your parents in truth ended up with a child which they hardly know why it even came.  They know they had sex.

Raising you.  Do any of us know what the hell is going on enough to say we know just what we are doing with a child?  So in reality, your parents were blindly raising a child they hardly know where it came from and hardly know where we are.  They can hardly tell you what to do here.  Hence:  you both have just incarnated here around the same time.  That's pretty much it.  They don't even know who you are.

An illusion of our world is we are these directionless people who don't know who we are, or where we are going.  We have no soul, just lumps of meat walking around that are victims of our environment.   We have people that keep doing things to us.

If that description isn't you.  You have fought out of this mess and become someone on top of the terrible, dirty, less than, people who have this trailer park mentality.  You have become stronger, or just naturally are stronger than these people.  Clearer, and healthier...

If this describes you, you should close this book and throw it away because you haven't learned a damn thing... and good luck!

A positive projection on one’s self is still a projection.  It does no good for anyone.  Including yourself.  Just like the rest of us, if you are on top, you are suffering just the same.  You are in the first description you just don't know it.

“It is easier to push a camel through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter heaven”

If anyone has been able to come this far in the book thinking in such a way as they are still higher than others or do better than others.  It can only be they are reading because its trendy.  They don't believe they need any help or change.  They want to say they read it to be in with their friends.  Understanding it has been like hitting the book on their forehead continuously just to get through it.  All the while wondering why the hell someone told them to read it.  There is a wall there.  The wall is not wanting any change.  This book is about change.

To remain in this world and read this book at the same time cannot be a pleasant experience.  It is the same as the groups of people that are crazed.  The ones I described as thinking they were Jesus Christ.  Them and their followers not accepting the messages coming from within themselves.  To a point of being crazed and violent.  The information coming from within they won’t recognize as being truth.  This information is coming from without as it should, and one is trying to ignore the truths.  We are still early in our changes as a planet, so ignoring truths won’t affect them as much right now.  It will though as time goes by.

This is not necessarily a “self-help book” to help you feel better.  Don't forget what this book is about and what it is for.  The journey I have brought you through is to help you understand who you are and where we are going.  Where you are going!  You may need to read this book or chapters from it many times.  There is a lot “hidden in plain sight”.