This dream of blades in the water concerns me. I do not understand its meaning. The water was clean and clear, and so were the blades, but what they represent is a mystery to me. The bathing suit, orange in colour, has to be a reflection of the movie Unbreakable, where the monster wore orange coveralls. Also, the thief wore orange leather pants. I have to see from Edgar Cayce what orange and razor blades represent.
In Dreams: Your Magic Mirror, orange means health and energy.
The interpretation of a dream with a blade reaffirms good and evil in the world. And the ‘cutting out’ of unseemly things.
The Speedo covers the genitals. The second chakra. I opened the door twice to close it just as fast, not wanting to see more.
Orange: Maybe the movie, where the bad guy wears orange, will or has changed my interpretation of that colour. In the movie, he bullies his way into a house, kills the father, rapes and kills the mother, and keeps the two young girls (children nine and twelve) tied up in a closet. The colour orange is used over and over again to show violence.
Invisible blades in the bath water: I have no explanation for this one.
We both shared a room: Shared memories? Shared sexual abuse?
Dirty sheets in the hall: I think they were dark blue, not certain now of the colour. They were on the floor in the hall as if the stay was
over and we were moving on, only the sheets were to be washed by the owner of the house: Oma.
Dec. 5, 2000 (Letter to Hell)
It is so important that I understand what is going on inside me.
Would you be able to answer a question or two?
What was going on yesterday? Is that a ‘normal’ Network response or am I putting on a show here? When I cry after an adjustment, it seems I cannot stop. What is going on? I am trying very hard to connect my head with the rest of me. Is that the result? I was totally exhausted last night. Is that also ‘normal’? And why, if I feel so tired and emptied out, do people tell me I look ten years younger? I always think I am exaggerating. I always try to put on the brakes. But most of the time, I do not seem to have much control over my reaction to the adjustments. Is that also normal?
Dec. 10, 2000 (Computer Journal)