Angel...
What the fuck did I just do? For the first time in a very long time I listen to my heart instead of my head it was the best and worst decision I’ve ever made. I love having his hands and mouth all over me just thinking about it makes me wet all over again. I love having him inside of me. When I am with him he makes me feel like there is no one else in the world but us. He makes me feel safe like nothing could ever happen to me when he is around. He makes me feel happy but I also feel scare. I’ve never felt what I feel when I am with him before. This is all new to me and I am scared that like everything else in my life this ends up blowing up in my face. No I can’t let that happen. I can’t let my guard down.
I reach for the towel and wrap it around me. I was in such a hurry to get away from him that I forgot to bring my cloths. I comb my fingers through my hair as I look for something to wear. There is nothing in here but dirty cloths and I refuse to wear that. Damn I am going to have to go out like this. I need to get this over with the more I wait the worst it will hurt.
I open the door and step out. He is lying on his bed wearing only his boxer. Fuck he looks so fucking delicious I just want to go over there and run my tongue all over him. “Come here” he pats the spot next to him. I would love to go lay next to him but I shouldn’t I’ve already fucked up. “I need to get dress” I walk towards the door. He jumps out of his bed and gets to the door before I do. “Why?” he leans into the door blocking my way. I tug on the towel trying to keep it close “Why what?” I ask.
“Why get dress when I am just going to take it off again?” he smirks as he stares at me. I feel his eyes burning through the towel. My legs quiver as I think of his mouth on my wet cunt. “That’s not going to happen” I clear my throat trying to clear my head “This was just a onetime thing”. He croaks his eyebrow at me “Ha you don’t even believe that”. He takes a step towards me “Why?” he asks again. I tilt my head to the side “Why what?” I ask confuse. He walks towards me and I back away from him. I don’t know if I’ll be able to control myself if he is close to me. My legs hit the bed and I lose my balance. “Why are you trying to run away from me?” he climbs on top of me. I can feel his hard cock pressing against me.
Fuck he wants me as much as I want him. This isn’t good I have to get away from him. “I am not trying to run away from you but we both got what we wanted” I say. He dips his head and plants a soft kiss on the side of my neck “I didn’t get what I want”. I close my eyes and bite down on my lip “You didn’t?” I say breathless. He slides his hand up my thighs “No,” he nibbles down the side of my neck. This is not going how I planned it. “What do you want?” I spread my legs giving him access. His finger finds my clit “I want you all of you” he says as his fingers start to work.
I want him to all of him just for me. “Give me what I want” he un-wraps the towel leaving me naked. “I can’t” I say as I move my hips at the rhythm of his fingers. I can’t think about anything right now. “Yes you can baby,” he drops his head and latches onto my nipple. Fuck that feels so good. “You’re not playing fair” I moan as I chase my orgasm. “You want me to stop?” he asks as he bites on my nipple. “Fuck no” I answer quickly. My breathing starts picking up as I start feeling waves building up. “Faster,” I cry. His fingers start moving faster as he sucks harder on my tits. “Mmmm,” I moan as I pull him up and kiss him. I bite down on his lips as my orgasm rips through me.
“Oh God,” I throw my head back “that wasn’t fair and you know it” I look over at him. He tucks a piece of my hair behind my ear “A man got to do what a man got to do”. I shake my head as I run my hand through my hair. There is no way I am going to be able to act like nothing happen between us. No matter how bad I try to convince myself there is nothing between us when there is. I can lie to him but I can’t lie to myself. I can’t lie to my heart that speeds up every time I see him. I can’t lie to my body that feels his heat whenever he steps into a room. “Hey,” he grabs my face for me to look at him “What are you thinking about?”
“What are we doing?” I need to know what he wants from me. “Well you’re trying to run away from me again and I am trying to stop you” he answers. I roll my eyes at him “Never mind” if he isn’t going to take this serious than neither am I. I try to sit up but he jumps on me “You’re not going anywhere” he pins my arms on top of my head. “Are you fucking serious?” I try getting out of his hold. “I’ll let go of you only if you promise me that you aren’t going to run away” he say
Right now all I want to do is kick him in the fucking face. Who the hell does he think he is manhandling me? “Promise” I close my hand into a fist as soon as he lets go off me I am going to punch him in the face. He leans down and gives me a quick peck in the lips “Ight”. He lets go off my arms and I swing at him but he ducks “I saw that coming” he chuckles. “Don’t you ever manhandle me again or you’ll be fucking sorry” I growl.
He laughs under his breath “You’re so fucking hot when you’re mad and naked”. I totally forgot I was naked I reach for the towel but he gets to it first. “Nope, now let’s talk” he smiles. “I can’t talk while being naked” I cover my breast with my arm. “Fine,” he stands up and pulls down his boxer “now we’re both naked”. My eyes drop to his hard cock. Mm I lick my lips as I remember how it tastes in my mouth.
“Now let’s talk” he sits again. I force my eyes to move away from his beautiful hard cock “What do you want to talk about?” I ask. “I don’t want you to run from me no more,” he says. “I am not running,” I roll my eyes at him “we work together”. Did he forget that? “I am not talking about that and you know it” he states.
I know exactly what he is referring to but I prefer to act like I don’t. “I want in” he says. I look over at him “In where?” We already work together and I don’t have any other business that I know of. Wait what if there is another business out there I don’t know about it. He leans into me and place his hand over my heart “In here”. I feel like I can’t breathe.
If only he knew that he is halfway there. That’s the reason why I keep running away from him. “I can’t” I drop my head to look at my toes. “Why?” he tilts me head up. There are so many reason why I can’t that I don’t even know where to start. I bite down on my lip and give him the main reason why “Because you’ll destroy me”.
His eyes soften as he stares at me “Baby, I will never do anything to hurt you”. He sounds so sincere that I want to believe him. “Or is it that you don’t want to?” he ask. I quickly shake my head “It’s not that. I want you, I want this with every last cell in my body but I am scare”. There I finally said it out loud.
“Baby,” he pulls me into his lap. The tip of his cock is press against my clit. “You’re not the only one who is scare I am fucking panicking, this isn’t only new to you it’s new to me but unlike you I am willing to face my fear because I trust that you wouldn’t break my heart”. I feel tears in the back of my eyes starting to build up. “That’s the problem what if I break your heart? I can’t live know that I hurt you” I say as I run my finger up his chest.
“We won’t know if we never try it” he says. He is right of course. “Please baby trust me,” he grabs my hand and place it over his heart “trust this, give us a chance, you can’t keep running away from love, let me save you” he swipes my tattoo with his thumb. Those words knock the wind out of me. Could it be? Did he discover my tattoo? “What did you just say?” I ask as I try pulling my hand out of his grip but he tightens his hold. “I said let me save you baby from whatever or whomever you need saving”. Oh my God! He knows about my tattoo. Could this be a sign? Tears starts rolling down my face. Why do I always get stuck with the sensitive bikers? Where the hell are the bad ass bikers that aren’t looking for love? He lifts me off his lap “Please baby,” I feel the tip of his cock poking my folds. He slowly pulls me down until his cock is inside of me. Just having him inside of me makes me feel whole. I know he belongs there my body and heart is telling me.
He runs his thumbs under my eyes to swipe my tears away “So?” he asks. I take in a deep breath I can’t believe what I am about to do. “Okay,” I whisper as I nod my head. He tilts my head back “What was that?” I roll my eyes at him “I said okay”. He breaks into a smile “But you know this isn’t going to be easy there are a lot of things you don’t know about me” I still haven’t even mention Manic. I don’t even know where to start. “I don’t care there is nothing you can possible tell me to make me not want you, I promise to keep you and your heart safe”. He leans down and sucks on my lips. I wrap my arms around his neck and pull him into me. I start moving my hips but he stops me “Slow, I want this to be slow”.
He rolls us over for me to be under him “I know it’s too early for this but I think I-,”. I cover his mouth with my hand “Don’t say it I am already freaking out as it is”. I stop him from saying what he was going to say. “Then I’ll show you” he leans down and softly kisses me. He kiss is so gentle and pack with so much feeling that I feel my chest is ready to explode. I feel what he is trying to tell me. He starts rocking into me but not like he did a few minutes ago, this time his body is making love to mines. I close my eyes and kiss him with everything I have. I hope he can feel what I am trying to tell him.
Butterflies start building up in my stomach as I get closer to my reaching point. I run my hands through his hair as he sucks on my neck. “Don’t stop” I cry. I am so close I can almost taste it. I wrap my legs around his waist as he keeps moving slowly. He pushes himself one last time and that’s all I need to explode. He bites down on my neck as he cums inside of me.