A Gift I’ve Never Deserved

For a long time, everyone else’s life was the right one.

And there were a few who had really nailed it.

This became a constant reminder to me:

Ericka, you’re just not good enough.

Ericka, you’ll never win.

I am, how would you say, frightenly competitive?

It’s something God has and continues to work on me.

But on this side of the coin, I look back and wonder at my thought process.

God didn’t give me any other life than this one.

I have abundance, and I’m not talking materialism here.

I have the honor of forever being in the court of the one True, High King.

So maybe it’s not about winning or striving or doing better.

Maybe it’s just about receiving a gift I’ve never deserved.