I STILL WANT TO SAY
A lot of my emotions, feelings and thoughts for
My Pretty Lotus have remained unsaid,
Despite so much expression I still feel
depressed, distorted and unread.
My lips are sealed, my tongue is tied and the
body is locked so I cannot reach,
To say all the things I still want to say for My
Pretty Lotus in my final speech.
Let me gather my words, actions, and
thoughts, character and heart to present them
later,
When this publication is duly acknowledged
by My Pretty Lotus and her Creator.
One thing has clearly emerged from my
interactions with my own after the loss of my
wife.
I have begun to live a withdrawn life and have
kept all those who were indifferent to me and
my way of life.
My own have not only distanced themselves
on my own conduct and behaviour but have
on many occasions tried to lecture me.
I not only detest this rudeness from my own
but I get infuriated and asked them to mind
their own and leave me.
Thus by the end of the third year of my loss I
have lost almost all support from everyone
except a few loyal ones.