The Renfield Syndrome by Clifford Beck - HTML preview

Chapter 9

He had become so accustomed to sitting alone in the basement that he began gravitating to it. When he needed a quiet place to sit and think, the corner he often sat in as part of his mother’s punishment was where he could be found. This time he sat pondering what he had done in the park. It didn’t take long for him to reach one important conclusion: he enjoyed it and exposing his body from the waist down he pleasured himself as the memory of taking the young girl’s life rolled through his head. It was as though he was watching a movie playing in his mind, one with no beginning and no end. He achieved release at the instant the rock came down on the girl’s head, repeating in his mind the sound of fracturing bone. Now, exhausted, he cleaned up after himself and, sitting back, gloated not just over his accomplishment but the pleasure he took in achieving it. Caspian’s plan was to render his mother lifeless, but having committed a murder gave him the confidence to go through with his original goal. Throughout the next few days, he found he was unable to flush the crime he had committed from his mind. His teachers noticed a faint smile on his face as they spoke up, jarring him back to the subject of learning. Although his attention returned, he would never be able to shake what he had done, nor the pleasure it gave him.

With those thoughts and emotions tumbling through his head, Caspian, on more than one occasion, found himself walking through the school hallways with a mild erection. It wasn’t something anyone would notice, but Caspian didn’t care if anyone noticed or not. He took a great deal of pride in what he had done and looked forward to the time when he would take his mother’s life. This would be the great prize: killing the one person who made his life miserable. This he would especially enjoy. But it was all about timing; he had to carry this out during a time when there was no chance of her regaining consciousness. However, there was an obvious wrinkle in his plan. How would he dispense with the items used in the commission of this crime? This was the most critical part of the plan. Once her body was discovered by local authorities, the apartment would be searched, and if the syringe and chemical were found, Caspian would most certainly go to prison. This possibility was unacceptable. He refused to be punished for giving his mother what he felt she deserved. He had to look for someplace to dispose of what the court would call ‘weapons.’