In case it
hasn't become clear from my more recent ramblings, I'm a believer in
following your dreams. I actually had an interesting conversation
regarding this with my best friend today. Contrarily to me, he's
“playing it safe” when it comes to his career. He does,
however, wish he had done the opposite – in fact, he followed
his dream briefly before settling for a safer career option. (His
dream, similarly to me, is a career in music.)
I, on the other hand, did the opposite. I initially aimed for a financially secure career path before second-thinking myself less than halfway into it. Then I ended up following my dream. And I don't regret doing so. I'm loving every second of it.
Although I regret taking a detour through university to here in a sense, I'll admit that the two years I spent in university didn't entirely go to waste. I met a bunch of amazing individuals during my time there. And I learned a few new things about English and its different aspects. But had I not failed that stupid entrance exam for the pedagogical studies, chances are I wouldn't have ended up here. In that sense, I'm kind of glad I did fail it.
Either way, I acknowledge that I'm risking financial stability by having chosen this path. But fuck if I was going to stay in university to just barely pump out a degree in whatever with how rapidly my motivation was declining. Imagine the energy with which I would've worked a job in that field. It certainly wasn't looking to be very high.
On another note, my online dating misadventure has seen... well, mediocre success, to say the least. Out of five women I “matched” with (counting out two spambots), only two ever responded. And only one of those I actually talked with. To add insult to injury, I talked with her for a mere day – after that and a message I sent her the next day, she never responded.
I can only be so mad, though. Online dating does have its fair share of similar cases, and my approach is purely experimental anyway. It's not guaranteed to work out – if anything, it's guaranteed to not work out. But there's a reason I took the approach that I did: I'm essentially weighing my chances of finding a thinker like myself.
Will it get better or worse from here? Somehow I'm suspecting the latter.