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The White Man's Way
"TO cook by your fire and to sleep under your roof for the night," I had announced on
entering old Ebbits's cabin; and he had looked at me blear-eyed and vacuous, while Zilla
had favored me with a sour face and a contemptuous grunt. Zilla was his wife, and no
more bitter-tongued, implacable old squaw dwelt on the Yukon. Nor would I have
stopped there had my dogs been less tired or had the rest of the village been inhabited.
But this cabin alone had I found occupied, and in this cabin, perforce, I took my shelter.
Old Ebbits now and again pulled his tangled wits together, and hints and sparkles of
intelligence came and went in his eyes. Several times during the preparation of my supper
he even essayed hospitable inquiries about my health, the condition and number of my
dogs, and the distance I had travelled that day. And each time Zilla had looked sourer
than ever and grunted more contemptuously.
Yet I confess that there was no particular call for cheerfulness on their part. There they
crouched by the fire, the pair of them, at the end of their days, old and withered and
helpless, racked by rheumatism, bitten by hunger, and tantalized by the frying-odors of
my abundance of meat. They rocked back and forth in a slow and hopeless way, and
regularly, once every five minutes, Ebbits emitted a low groan. It was not so much a
groan of pain, as of pain-weariness. He was oppressed by the weight and the torment of
this thing called life, and still more was he oppressed by the fear of death. His was that
eternal tragedy of the aged, with whom the joy of life has departed and the instinct for
death has not come.
When my moose-meat spluttered rowdily in the frying-pan, I noticed old Ebbits's nostrils
twitch and distend as he caught the food- scent. He ceased rocking for a space and forgot
to groan, while a look of intelligence seemed to come into his face.
Zilla, on the other hand, rocked more rapidly, and for the first time, in sharp little yelps,
voiced her pain. It came to me that their behavior was like that of hungry dogs, and in the
fitness of things I should not have been astonished had Zilla suddenly developed a tail
and thumped it on the floor in right doggish fashion. Ebbits drooled a little and stopped
his rocking very frequently to lean forward and thrust his tremulous nose nearer to the
source of gustatory excitement.
When I passed them each a plate of the fried meat, they ate greedily, making loud mouth-
noises - champings of worn teeth and sucking intakes of the breath, accompanied by a
continuous spluttering and mumbling. After that, when I gave them each a mug of
scalding tea, the noises ceased. Easement and content came into their faces. Zilla relaxed
her sour mouth long enough to sigh her satisfaction. Neither rocked any more, and they
seemed to have fallen into placid meditation. Then a dampness came into Ebbits's eyes,
and I knew that the sorrow of self-pity was his. The search required to find their pipes