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Letter 38: 30th June, 1836
To the Rev. A. Brandram
(ENDORSED: recd. July 11, 1836)
REVD. AND DEAR SIR, - As I have little doubt that you are anxiously awaiting
the arrival of some intelligence from me, I write a few lines which I have no doubt
will prove satisfactory to you, and in the course of a few days I hope to write
again, when I shall probably be able to announce the happy termination of the
affair which brought me to Spain.
The difficulties which I have had to encounter since I last wrote to you have been
so many and formidable that I have been frequently on the verge of despairing
ever to obtain permission to print the Gospel in Spain, which has become the
most ardent wish of my heart. Only those who have been in the habit of dealing
with Spaniards, by whom the most solemn promises are habitually broken, can
form a correct idea of my reiterated disappointments and of the toil of body and
agony of spirit which I have been subjected to. One day I have been told, at the
Ministry, that I had only to wait a few moments and all I wished would be
acceded to; and then my hopes have been blasted with the information that
various difficulties, which seemed insurmountable, had presented themselves,
whereupon I have departed almost broken-hearted; but the next day I have been
summoned in a great hurry and informed that 'all was right,' and that on the
morrow a regular authority to print the Scriptures would be delivered to me; but
by that time fresh and yet more terrible difficulties had occurred - so that I
became weary of my life.
During the greatest part of the last six weeks I have spent upon an average ten
hours every day, dancing attendance on one or another of the Ministers, and
when I have returned home I have been so fatigued that I have found it
impossible to write, even to my nearest friends. The heat has been suffocating,
for the air seems to be filled with flaming vapours, and the very Spaniards are
afraid to stay out, and lie gasping and naked on their brick floors; therefore if you
have felt disappointed in not having heard from me for a considerable time, the
above statement must be my excuse.
During the last fortnight the aspect of my affair has become more favourable,
and, notwithstanding all the disappointments I have met, I now look forward with
little apprehension to the result. The English Ambassador, Mr. Villiers, has taken
me by the hand in the most generous manner and has afforded me the most
effectual assistance. He has spoken to all the Ministers, collectively and
individually, and has recommended the granting of my petition in the strongest