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BEYOND NO SELF
Copyright ©2008 by Daniel Erway (Nirmala)
Endless Satsang Press
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The spiritual journey is a movement away from over-identification with the body and mind to the rediscovery of our true identity as infinite Being, and this can be two different movements. The first is dis- identification 2
with the body and mind. Since identification is simply a movement of thought, dis-identification is simply a movement away from thought. The ego identification that we experience most of the time is the result of repeated thoughts about "I", "me," and "mine." That is all there is to it, but while we are thinking these thoughts the sense of self is contained in them. And since most of our self-referencing thoughts are about our body, our thoughts, our feelings, and our desires, the sense of self is usually contained in the body and mind.
Dis-identification from the thought form of the ego can occur whenever there is a deep questioning of the assumption in most of our thoughts that we are this body and this mind. Inquiry using the question, Who am I? can naturally weaken the assumption that I am the body and the mind. In fact, any deep questioning of our thoughts and assumptions can loosen our over-identification with thought, since so many of them are not very true. Experiences of no thought can also weaken the identification because in the absence of thought, there is an absence of identification. We all experience this when we get so caught up in what we are doing that we completely "forget ourselves."
Alternatively, directly sensing the presence that is aware of the thoughts can also dis-entangle the tendency to identify with the thoughts. The second movement of the spiritual journey is this recognition, or realization, of your true nature as presence or limitless empty awareness. It is a wonderful surprise to discover that everything that really matters in life, including peace, joy, and love, is found in this empty awareness. This emptiness is incredibly full and rich. It has intelligence and strength and compassion. Whenever we experience a deeper quality of Being such as clarity, peace, insight, value, happiness or love, it is coming from this spacious presence.
The surprising thing is that while these two movements can occur simultaneously, they can also happen apart from each other. When this happens, the movement from ego identification to our essential nature is not complete. For example, you can question deeply your own thoughts until the false assumptions in them are seen through. The over-identification that results from constantly thinking about me and mine and my body and my problems can't survive closer examination. It can be a shock to see how completely we assume that I am this body and I am this mind, and an even bigger shock and relief to discover that it is just a thought, and it is not true. The identification is really just a thought. There is no actual equivalence between you and your body or your mind. You are that which experiences the body and the mind, but you are not contained in them.
Even though this is a profound insight and a huge relief (after all if I am not my body, then these are not my aches and pains; and if I am not my mind, then these are not my problems), by itself this insight only reveals the false assumptions. It does not reveal the underlying truth. And since the underlying truth of your nature is more of a heart-centered experience, it is possible to dissolve the ego without touching your true nature. In a sense, you can wake up in your mind, but not in your heart.
When this happens, there is both the sense of relief from all of the grief caused by the over-identification with the body and mind, and often a deep sense of meaninglessness. If "I" don't exist, then what is the point? It doesn't matter anymore what the fictional "I" does or what happens to it. In fact, nothing matters at all because it is so clearly all an illusion.
When seekers are led or just find their own way to a deep experience of no-self, they can then form a new more subtle belief that this absence of self is all there is. "I am not my body, I am not my mind, I do not exist"
are seen as the final conclusions. From a purely logical perspective, what more is there to say, since there is no one here to say it or hear it! And while these conclusions are true, they are not the whole truth.
Underlying all of the activity of the mind is the non-conceptual reality of Being, or our true nature.
Underlying the concept of apple, one can experience the reality of a sweet, red piece of fruit. However it is more subtle when it comes to our true nature, because the reality underlying our false identification with the ego is not physical. It is a pure empty aware space that is full of the subtle substance of presence in all of its essential forms: peace, joy, love, clarity, strength, value, and much more.
How can that be—empty space that is full of everything that matters? The mind cannot grasp it fully, as presence exists beyond concepts and even beyond its own forms; and yet, that is what you are. You can experience it with more subtle senses than the physical senses and the mind. Ultimately, you "sense" it by being it. You just are this full empty presence.
It is this second movement of realization of essence, presence, and fullness of Being that counteracts the belief that since I (as ego) do not exist, therefore nothing exists and all is illusion. It gives a heartfelt sense of meaning and purpose back to this relative life of the body and mind, not as a means of gratification to your idea of yourself, but as a pure expression of the wonder and beauty of this deeper reality. Instead of living a life in service to the ego's wants and needs, you can find yourself fulfilling the deepest purposes of a human life: to serve and express freedom, joy, beauty, peace and love. By itself the realization of no-self can end up dry and lifeless, but when the heart opens wide to the bigger truth of the true Self, life is anything but dry and lifeless.
It is also worth mentioning that the opposite can occur: At any time, your awareness can move directly into pure presence and be filled with a sense of the essential limitless goodness of your true nature. And while any experience of true nature does to some extent loosen the identification with the limited idea of yourself we call the ego, since it doesn't compute to think of yourself as a limited body and mind when you are experiencing the bigger underlying reality, an experience of true nature by itself doesn't always dissolve the ego completely. Having a direct experience of deeper truth doesn't take away your inherent capacity to identify. It doesn't render you incapable of thought, so you can still return to thinking of yourself as a limited self, even if it is now a limited self that has tasted your true nature.
So if the habit of identification with the body and mind does continue, it can still be necessary to deconstruct the mistaken beliefs related to ego identification. There is a place for questioning and inquiring into the false beliefs and assumptions of our identification with the body and mind, and a place for questioning and inquiring into the underlying reality. The difference is that the inquiry into true nature is not a purely mental activity. Because of the subtle nature of presence, the inquiry itself has to be subtle and whole hearted. To discover what is really here in the truest sense requires subtlety, patience, persistence, courage, tenderness, compassion, curiosity, and ultimately everything you've got! The momentum of our usual identification with physical reality and with our purely mental thought forms shapes our perception to such a great degree, that it is a challenge to break through to the more subtle dimensions of perception.
It helps to pursue the inquiry into true nature both with the heart and also with the body. The mind's view is so easily distorted by belief and conditioning that the experience beneath the shoulders is often a more direct and open doorway into presence. What are you experiencing right now in your shoulders? In your heart? In your belly? What is the space around your arms and legs like right now? Is there energy flowing in your body right now? Questions like these can direct you to a more fruitful exploration, especially if you ask them with your whole heart and not just with your mind.
It is a saving grace that this deeper reality is always present. Sometimes it just touches us in an unguarded moment of deep loss or profound beauty. In the end, there is no escaping from the truth. Illusions come and go, beliefs come and go, and yet the underlying presence remains.
In words it can seem overly simple. Just stop believing in your thoughts and sense your being. It really is that simple, although it is not always easy. One of the things that make it a challenge is the sense of identity we naturally have. Inherent in our existence as true nature is a sense that we exist or that "I am." We do exist as true nature, and so of course, we sense that existence. While many might be confused about who or what they are, not very many doubt their own existence. In fact, existence and identity are aspects of our true nature.
So, even when we are caught in the mental world of thoughts, there is still this underlying sense of identity.
We still feel like we exist. And since we are so strongly imprinted onto our physical bodies and our thoughts 4
and therefore our attention is on them most of the time, our sense of identity often moves into our body and our thoughts, feelings, and desires. We start to say "I am sad" instead of "I feel sad." We speak of our experience as if it is our identity.
Anytime we add something to the statement "I am," as in "I am scared" or "I am a bird watcher," our identity moves into that thought. This is what it means to identify with thought. A thought by itself has little power or significance. It may be relevant and useful, but it doesn't have much lasting impact. Most thoughts pass very quickly, so much so that often we can't remember what was said in a conversation just a moment ago.
However, a thought that begins with "I" or "I am" or a thought that is about me or my possessions or my experience evokes a bit of this sense of identity. It is as if our true nature or true identity moves into or tries on the shape and feel of the thought. Dissolving or deconstructing the thoughts that we identify with can free our essential identity from an assumption that it is somehow contained in our body or our mind. Seeing the falseness of those ideas opens the door for our deepest sense of our own existence to move out of the tight confines of our beliefs and ego identifications.
Often when the sense of self is set free from the structures of ego- centered thought, it naturally expands into a full experience of the underlying true nature. We call a sudden expansion into true nature like this an awakening, as it seems we have awakened to a whole new reality that is rich and full of joy, peace, and love.
However, again it is also possible for the sense of self or identity to move into a different belief or assumption of no-self. This often happens when the focus of a teaching or inquiry is on the negation of false identifications, without a counter-balancing emphasis on the underlying reality of presence. Some spiritual practices are specifically designed to negate false identifications, such as the practice of seeing that you are not this and not that until nothing is left. Some spiritual teachers and teachings emphasize the non-existence of a separate individual and go on to suggest that not only is the individual not real, but the world and everything in it is not real.
There is a profound truth in this perspective, as it penetrates the usual belief or assumption that the ego and all of its experiences are the most real aspect of our experience. Even those who have tasted deeper reality often return to a ego-centered perspective because of the momentum of our over concern with the physical and mental realms. Even in the face of profound experiences to the contrary, there is a habit of assuming that the most important things are your physical body and your ideas, beliefs, and thoughts, so much so that we think everything that pops into our heads is important. We will even use the argument, "That's what I think" to justify our position, as if thinking something makes it true. Since our most common thought or assumption is the assumption that I am the body or I am my thoughts, feelings, and desires, this pointing to the falseness or incompleteness of that most basic belief is vitally important to the loosening of the grip it has on us.
However, in the absence of a pointing to and experiencing of our true nature, there is this danger of the sense of self simply landing on a new belief in no-self. Your sense of self moves from a limited and painful identification with the mind's idea of yourself to a more open and freeing idea of emptiness and non-existence.
While this is relatively a relief, it can eventually be just as limiting as the original ego identification. When our identity or sense of self has moved into or identified with nothingness, or at least with the idea of emptiness or no-self, it can become stuck there. This is often reflected in a kind of defensiveness of this new identification. Anytime someone challenges you, you deflect the criticism or conflict by retreating more fully into the idea of no-self. Or you can turn the tables on them and try to convince them that they do not exist so their concerns are not valid. This new identification with no-self can be flat and uninvolving. Life has no meaning or value. So, what has been a helpful and freeing dissolving of limiting structures can then become fossilized into a new limiting identification.
Because it is your essential identity or sense of self that moves into or identifies with the concept of emptiness or no-self, it is a very convincing new identification. Whenever identity moves into an experience, it does not 5
just experience it, to a degree it actually becomes it. When your sense of self is firmly planted in the body and mind of the ego, it feels like that is who you are. And when instead of just experiencing emptiness, your identity or sense of self moves fully into emptiness or no-self, it also is very convincingly felt as who you are.
When you move so fully into identification with something that it doesn't feel like just an experience but rather who you really are, the experience becomes more global and convincing.
This is the power of identification to make a specific perspective or experience seem more total and real than it is. If a particular identification is limited and is a place of suffering, then this power of identification to make it more all encompassing and real makes the suffering more all encompassing and real. The power of identification can also make the dry emptiness and meaninglessness of no-self seem more all encompassing and real. They are ultimately both illusions, but it is through the process of identification that we make the illusions seem real. Being or consciousness itself is ultimately the one that is identifying, and when limitless eternal Being identifies to create illusion, it does a good job of it!
However, no matter how powerful the illusion of suffering or emptiness is when we are identified with it, identification is still simply a movement of thought followed by a movement of our sense of self into that thought. Since thought is always a temporary phenomenon, no identification is ever permanent. In fact, every identification only lasts as long as the thought triggering it. We become "stuck" in identification by repeating a lot of similar thoughts. The sense of an egoic self or no-self are both created by a pattern of repeated thoughts that identity moves into.
Because this movement of thought is always temporary, there is always in every moment the possibility of touching the deeper reality of our true nature as presence and Being. Even more amazing is when, with repeated experiences of true nature, our identity or sense of self moves into the realm of essential reality.
Eventually it becomes obvious that the expanded spaciousness of our inner presence is actually who we are.
When our identity moves into true nature, there is no suffering and no dryness or emptiness. We simply are all of the peace, joy, and love in the universe.
There is nothing specifically you can do to move your true identity or sense of self into the expanded dimensions of your true nature. Identity is not something you do; it is what you are. However, the sense of identity follows your awareness, and since you are ultimately everything, it can and will identify with whatever is in your awareness. This is the danger of a teaching that doesn't point to or convey the existence of true nature. If something is not even talked about or considered, it is much less likely that awareness will notice it, and also much less likely that identity will ultimately shift into it. This is why it is important to teach and explore the nature of all of the qualities of presence such as joy, peace, and love, so that awareness begins to touch them and eventually identity shifts to the underlying truth of Being.
A subtle distinction needs to be made between your true identity and the sense of self you have in any moment. Your true identity has and always will be the infinite spaciousness of Being, including all forms, both physical and subtle, and all of the formless emptiness of pure space. But your sense of self is a flexible means for this limitless Being to experience itself from many different perspectives. By having this quality of identity that can move in and out of all kinds of experiences and temporarily appear to become them by identifying with them, Being gets to try on all of these different experiences or illusions from the most contracted and limited to the most expanded and blissful. Without this capacity, Being would be a static existence of infinite potential that is never expressed. By moving its identity into and identifying with the myriad perspectives of limited experience, this potential becomes experienced in form and movement.
So while mis-identification is the root of all of your "problems," it is not and never has been a mistake. Being has very purposefully shifted its identity in and out of infinite apparent selves to try them all on for size. Being stuck in identification is itself an illusion, since all identification is temporary. So while it is helpful, from the perspective of a limited self that is suffering, to explore and discover the other capacities of your identity to move out of the ego and into true nature, ultimately all of the spiritual teaching pointing to other possibilities 6
is actually just a description of what has always been going on, not a prescription for the right way to be.
Every expression of life is an expression of the right way to be, if the right way to be is simply to express our limitless capacity to experience identification and dis-identification, form and formlessness. The deepest fullest experience of anything is to become it, and that is what Being has been up to all along.
The ultimate freedom or liberation is the discovery that it is fine to identify and dis-identify. True freedom demands no limits, not even limits against limitation. Since Being itself is completely free and unharmable, it has been endlessly exploring every possibility of that freedom. This can allow you to hold everything, even the spiritual journey, lightly. The goal is and has always been the journey itself. You can be curious about this whole process of identification with ego, with no-self, and with true nature simply for its own sake. It is a rich and mysterious world of perception and reality that we as consciousness inhabit. Why not taste it all? Life is and has always been this endless movement in and out of identification, in and out of forms and formlessness.
Finally, here is a short fairy tale about Being, which captures some of this bigger freedom in a story: Once upon no time, there was an infinite and eternal Being. Needless to say this was one big Being. Being infinite and eternal meant that no matter where or when it went, there it was. And of course, anything that big was made of empty space, as space is the only thing big enough to be that infinite.
While space is a wonderfully low maintenance thing to be, since it can't be harmed, this Being still had a problem: There was no one else. Since it was already every-where and every-when, there was no place or time for anyone else. It was not a horrible problem, but still there was no one else to talk to, dance with, or play with.
What's an infinite Being to do? It can't really just create lesser beings inside of itself as that would not be very interesting to an infinite Being. For a truly infinite and eternal being to create little lesser beings to play with would be like you or me making dolls to play with as an adult. There's nothing wrong with that, but that's not very interesting after a while.
Then it had a great idea! Being infinite meant it also had infinite potential, so rather than create lesser beings, it decided to create more infinite beings. At first this would seem impossible since there is the question of where would you put another infinite Being? There already is no space left over once you have one infinite Being. But the great thing about space is that it is completely empty as long as it is pure space or pure potential, so two spaces can actually occupy the same space!
That was the solution! So, Being created an infinite number of infinite space Beings just like itself. In a sense, Being cloned itself. Now rather than having just a wind-up doll version of a Being to relate to, it had real, fully amazing infinite Beings like itself to relate to.
Even better, it quickly discovered that as long as one of the infinite space Beings stayed "home" as infinite space to hold the endless universes in place, then all of the rest were free to contract into all kinds of shapes and sizes. In fact, all a Being of infinite potential has to do to contract into a different shape or size is think about it, and voila it happens! That is the power of infinite potential!
Now not only could all of these infinite Beings hang out as one very big space (which of course really meant hanging out as one Being, since two spaces in the same space are really still just one space), they could also play at contracting into all kinds of lesser expressions of their infinite potential.
Now why would they want to do that? Why would something infinite want to experience being less than its infinite self? Well remember these Beings are not only infinite but also eternal, and eternity is a very long time! That means they all had a lot of time to kill. What does it matter if you spend a little time experiencing yourself as less than your complete potential, especially if you can do an entire eon standing on your head and 7
still have all the time in the world?
And so Being, as many Beings, was now free to talk, dance, create, and play in all kinds of crazy wonderful ways because now there was someone "else" to talk, dance, create, and play with. Party time!!!
Ever since, it has been discovering all of the different things it can identify with and thereby temporarily become, and all of the truly strange and amazing things it can do once it has become less than itself. Infinite space can't really play soccer or be a super nova or fall in love or have its heart broken or create a new universe or fly a kite when it is expanded into its original nature as infinite space, but if it contracts into a form or expression of itself, then it can do all of that and more!
So that is what it has been up to ever since, and it is really just getting started since it still has so much time on its hands; the rest of eternity is still a very long time. That is also why it is so amazing to relate to others: because it is never some lesser incomplete being across the table from you. It is always an infinite Being with infinite potential that you are talking to or playing with. No wonder they are so convincing in their role as an apparent separate individual. It is really God playing that role. There are only Gods upon Gods upon Gods being everybody and everything and doing everything that is done! That is what we all are.
Pretty clever solution if you want to have some fun, don't you think?
* * *CONTACT INFORMATION
For information about Nirmala's satsang* schedule and to download free copies of his other books and publications, visit: www.endless-satsang.com
You can contact Nirmala at Nirmalanow@aol.com.
For information about Nirmala's teacher, Neelam, visit: www.neelam.org.
For information about Nirmala's teacher, Adyashanti, visit: www.adyashanti.org.
For information about Nirmala's wife's books, visit www.radicalhappiness.com.
Nirmala has also been profoundly inspired by the teachings of A.H Almaas and his work, The Diamond Approach: www.ahalmaas.com.
* Satsang is a Sanskrit word that means coming together to speak about and share Truth.
* * *ABOUT NIRMALA
After a lifetime of spiritual seeking, Nirmala met his teacher, Neelam, a devotee of H.W.L. Poonja (Papaji).
She convinced Nirmala that seeking wasn't necessary; and after experiencing a profound spiritual awakening in India, he began offering satsang and Nondual Spiritual Mentoring with Neelam's blessing. This tradition of spiritual wisdom has been most profoundly disseminated by Ramana Maharshi, a revered Indian saint, who was Papaji's teacher. Nirmala's perspective was also profoundly expanded by his friend and teacher, Adyashanti.
Nirmala offers a unique vision and a gentle, compassionate approach, which adds to this rich tradition of inquiry into the truth of Being. He is also the author of several books including Nothing Personal: Seeing Beyond the Illusion of a Separate Self. He has been offering satsang throughout the United States and Canada since 1998. Nirmala lives in Sedona, Arizona with his wife, Gina Lake.
* * *ABOUT NONDUAL SPIRITUAL MENTORING
Nondual Spiritual Mentoring with Nirmala is available to support you in giving attention and awareness to the more subtle and yet more satisfying inner dimensions of your being. Whether it is for a single spiritual mentoring session or for ongoing one-to-one spiritual guidance, this is an opportunity for you to more completely orient your life towards the true source of peace, joy, and happiness, especially if there is not ongoing satsang or other support available in your location. As a spiritual teacher and spiritual mentor, Nirmala has worked with thousands of individuals and groups around the world to bring people into a direct experience of the spiritual truth of oneness beyond the illusion of separation. He especially enjoys working with individuals in one-to-one sessions because of the greater depth and intimacy possible.
Mentoring sessions with Nirmala are an opportunity for open-ended inquiry. In your session, you can ask any questions, raise any concerns that are meaningful to you, or simply explore your present moment experience, which is a powerful doorway into a deeper reality. Regular weekly, biweekly, or monthly mentoring sessions can be especially transformative.
These mentoring sessions are offered either in person or over the phone and typically last an hour. You can email Nirmala at Nirmalanow@aol.com to arrange a time for a spiritual mentoring session. Please include your phone number and location in your email. At the arranged time, Nirmala will call you if you live in the United States or Canada. If you live in another country, you must initiate the call.
* * *FREE EBOOKS BY NIRMALA
The following PDF e-books are available for free from www.endless-satsang.com: Part Two of Living From the Heart (The entire book is also available as a paperback for $11.95) A collection of teachings about the Heart, including:
Part one: From the Heart: Dropping out of Your Mind and Into Your Being Offers simple ways to shift into a more open and accepting perspective and to experience your true nature as aware space.
Part two: The Heart's Wisdom
Points the reader back to the Heart, the truest source of wisdom.
Part three: Love Is for Giving, Not for Getting
Points to the true source of love in your own heart. It is by giving love that we are filled with love.
Here are some excerpts:
"The Heart is wise and accurate and can show you how true it is to stay or go, how true it is to buy a house, how true it is to take a new job, even how true it is to eat another cookie. But it also can show you much more of the possibilities inherent in this life and much more of the truth of your ultimate Being. In relation to these bigger truths, the practical questions of your life turn out to be relatively small matters. Using your Heart only to know things like what to do or where to live is like using a global positioning satellite system to find the way from your bedroom to your bathroom; it utilizes only a small part of your Heart's capacity.
However, following your Heart day in and day out can put you in touch with the richness of the functioning of this dimension of your Being. Along the way, you may also find your Heart opening in response to the deeper movements of Being that touch every life."
"In the midst of a very profound and large experience of truth, the sense of your self can become so large and inclusive that it no longer has much of a sense of being your Being. When you awaken to the oneness of all things, the sense of a me can thin out quite dramatically. If you are the couch you are sitting on and the clouds in the sky and everything else, then it simply doesn't make sense to call it all me. If it's so much more than what you usually take yourself to be, then the term me is just too small.
In a profound experience of truth, the sense of me softens and expands to such a degree that there's only a slight sense of me as a separate self remaining, perhaps just as the observer of the vastness of truth. Beyond these profound experiences of the truth, is the truth itself. When you're in touch with the ultimate truth and the most complete sense of Being, there's nothing separate remaining to sense itself there's no experience and no experiencer, no Heart, and no sense of self. There is only Being."
"You may think it matters what happens. But what if the only thing that matters is where you are experiencing from, where you are looking from? What if you could experience all of life from a spacious, open perspective where anything can happen and there is room for all of it, where there is no need to pick and choose, to put up barriers or resist any of it, where nothing is a problem and everything just adds to the richness of life? What if this open, spacious perspective was the most natural and easy thing to do?
It may sound too good to be true, but we all have a natural capacity to experience life in this way. The only requirement is to look from the Heart instead of from the eyes and the head—and not just to look, but to listen and feel and sense from the Heart.
In some spiritual traditions you are encouraged to look in your Heart, and yet what does that mean exactly?
Often we are so used to looking and sensing through the head and the mind that when we are asked to look in the Heart, we look through the head into the Heart to see what is there. Usually we end up just thinking about the Heart. But what if you could drop into the Heart and look from there? How would your life look right now? Is it possible that there is another world right in front of you that you can only see with the Heart and not with the mind?
This book invites you to explore this radically different perspective and to find out what is true and real when the world and your life are viewed from the Heart of Being. It may both delight and shock you to find that so much richness and wonder and beauty lie so close and are so immediately available to you."
Free Ebooks continued:
Beyond No Self
Nirmala's newest e-book explores the fullness of Being found in the absence of a separate self. It ends with a simple fairy tale that offers a sense of how one Being can appear as so many. Here is an excerpt:
"How can that be—empty space that is full of everything that matters? The mind cannot grasp it fully, as 10
presence exists beyond concepts and even beyond its own forms; and yet, that is what you are. You can experience it with more subtle senses than the physical senses and the mind. Ultimately, you "sense" it by being it. You just are this full empty presence.
It is this second movement of realization of essence, presence, and fullness of Being that counteracts the belief that since I (as ego) do not exist, therefore nothing exists and all is illusion. It gives a heartfelt sense of meaning and purpose back to this relative life of the body and mind, not as a means of gratification to your idea of yourself, but as a pure expression of the wonder and beauty of this deeper reality. Instead of living a life in service to the ego's wants and needs, you can find yourself fulfilling the deepest purposes of a human life: to serve and express freedom, joy, beauty, peace and love. By itself the realization of no-self can end up dry and lifeless, but when the heart opens wide to the bigger truth of the true Self, life is anything but dry and lifeless."
Gifts With No Giver
A collection of non-dual poetry by Nirmala. Here is a sample poem: every taste
every possible pleasure
is already present
in the timeless
that is beating my heart
in chasing dreams
that have already
Part One of Nothing Personal, Seeing Beyond the Illusion of a Separate Self (The whole book is available as a paperback for $16.95)
In this concisely edited collection of satsang talks and dialogues, Nirmala "welcomes whatever arises within the field of experience. In the midst of this welcoming is always an invitation to inquire deeply within, to the core of who and what you are. Again and again, Nirmala points the questions back to the questioner and beyond to the very source of existence itself—to the faceless awareness that holds both the question and the questioner in a timeless embrace." –From the Foreword by Adyashanti.
"Nothing Personal is an excellent book, very clear and warm-hearted. I love it and recommend it highly.
Nirmala is a genuine and authentic teacher, who points with great clarity to the simplicity and wonder of nondual presence. He invites you to ‘say yes to the mystery of every moment.' Good stuff!"–Joan Tollifson, 11
Advaita teacher and author of Awake in the Heartland
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