Anne's House of Dreams HTML version

20. Lost Margaret
Anne found that she could go on living; the day came when she even smiled again over
one of Miss Cornelia's speeches. But there was something in the smile that had never
been in Anne's smile before and would never be absent from it again.
On the first day she was able to go for a drive Gilbert took her down to Four Winds
Point, and left her there while he rowed over the channel to see a patient at the fishing
village. A rollicking wind was scudding across the harbor and the dunes, whipping the
water into white-caps and washing the sandshore with long lines of silvery breakers.
"I'm real proud to see you here again, Mistress Blythe," said Captain Jim. "Sit down--sit
down. I'm afeared it's mighty dusty here today--but there's no need of looking at dust
when you can look at such scenery, is there?"
"I don't mind the dust," said Anne, "but Gilbert says I must keep in the open air. I think
I'll go and sit on the rocks down there."
"Would you like company or would you rather be alone?"
"If by company you mean yours I'd much rather have it than be alone," said Anne,
smiling. Then she sighed. She had never before minded being alone. Now she dreaded
it. When she was alone now she felt so dreadfully alone.
"Here's a nice little spot where the wind can't get at you," said Captain Jim, when they
reached the rocks. "I often sit here. It's a great place jest to sit and dream."
"Oh--dreams," sighed Anne. "I can't dream now, Captain Jim--I'm done with dreams."
"Oh, no, you're not, Mistress Blythe--oh, no, you're not," said Captain Jim meditatively.
"I know how you feel jest now--but if you keep on living you'll get glad again, and the
first thing you know you'll be dreaming again--thank the good Lord for it! If it wasn't for
our dreams they might as well bury us. How'd we stand living if it wasn't for our dream
of immortality? And that's a dream that's BOUND to come true, Mistress Blythe. You'll
see your little Joyce again some day."
"But she won't be my baby," said Anne, with trembling lips. "Oh, she may be, as
Longfellow says, `a fair maiden clothed with celestial grace'--but she'll be a stranger to
"God will manage better'n THAT, I believe," said Captain Jim.
They were both silent for a little time. Then Captain Jim said very softly: