Women in Love
22. Woman To Woman
They came to the town, and left Gerald at the railway station. Gudrun and
Winifred were to come to tea with Birkin, who expected Ursula also. In the
afternoon, however, the first person to turn up was Hermione. Birkin was out, so
she went in the drawing-room, looking at his books and papers, and playing on
the piano. Then Ursula arrived. She was surprised, unpleasantly so, to see
Hermione, of whom she had heard nothing for some time.
'It is a surprise to see you,' she said.
'Yes,' said Hermione---'I've been away at Aix---'
'Oh, for your health?'
The two women looked at each other. Ursula resented Hermione's long, grave,
downward-looking face. There was something of the stupidity and the
unenlightened self-esteem of a horse in it. 'She's got a horse-face,' Ursula said to
herself, 'she runs between blinkers.' It did seem as if Hermione, like the moon,
had only one side to her penny. There was no obverse. She stared out all the
time on the narrow, but to her, complete world of the extant consciousness. In
the darkness, she did not exist. Like the moon, one half of her was lost to life.
Her self was all in her head, she did not know what it was spontaneously to run
or move, like a fish in the water, or a weasel on the grass. She must always
But Ursula only suffered from Hermione's one-sidedness. She only felt
Hermione's cool evidence, which seemed to put her down as nothing. Hermione,
who brooded and brooded till she was exhausted with the ache of her effort at
consciousness, spent and ashen in her body, who gained so slowly and with
such effort her final and barren conclusions of knowledge, was apt, in the
presence of other women, whom she thought simply female, to wear the
conclusions of her bitter assurance like jewels which conferred on her an
unquestionable distinction, established her in a higher order of life. She was apt,
mentally, to condescend to women such as Ursula, whom she regarded as
purely emotional. Poor Hermione, it was her one possession, this aching
certainty of hers, it was her only justification. She must be confident here, for God
knows, she felt rejected and deficient enough elsewhere. In the life of thought, of
the spirit, she was one of the elect. And she wanted to be universal. But there
was a devastating cynicism at the bottom of her. She did not believe in her own
universals---they were sham. She did not believe in the inner life---it was a trick,
not a reality. She did not believe in the spiritual world---it was an affectation. In
the last resort, she believed in Mammon, the flesh, and the devil--these at least
were not sham. She was a priestess without belief, without conviction, suckled in
a creed outworn, and condemned to the reiteration of mysteries that were not
divine to her. Yet there was no escape. She was a leaf upon a dying tree. What
help was there then, but to fight still for the old, withered truths, to die for the old,
outworn belief, to be a sacred and inviolate priestess of desecrated mysteries?
The old great truths bad been true. And she was a leaf of the old great tree of