my part, as our faculties revved in high gear behind exteriors of respectful
deliberation.
The effect of these encounters was to constantly make me reach for
cool ideas, like opening a door to free beer after crossing the barren
wasteland of my mind, until I was ready to tear her friggin face off. This
anxiety showed when I came home, and Ed didn‘t understand why I put up
with it; not even getting laid would have been worth it, and I wasn‘t
getting any. I think he saw her as I had originally seen her—a recruiter,
but of what remained elusive, and he knew better than to pry.
The bottom line was that he attended no classes, which meant the
distance between us was becoming more than a financial gulf, and not
only because of our diverging experiences: In early July, he and I were
idly talking about his plans for a summer vacation, when he mentioned the
possibility of a few weeks sailing in August. It came to me then, with
clarity and certainty, that he should not go away at that time; his father
was going to die in August, and I said so, just as I had told my mother the
same thing when I knew my father was going to die, many years earlier.
Ed understood that I was not trying to prove anything, but having said
anything wasn‘t the smartest thing I ever did, if only by colouring his
summer days.
Me: I was thirty-five. As a television (news) soundman, I had been to
thirteen countries in conflict, two famines, a massacre of international
proportions, and a few no one but family cared about, which pretty much
summed up my Post Traumatic disposition as well.
I slid lower into the Accord‘s seat, to place my knees on the
dashboard, because I had a nerve problem in my hip fro m carrying the first
=portable‘ electronic video equipment. I had lived with pain coming and
going with minor movements, I could not anticipate, long enough to adjust
my body to angles of relief without thinking. Sitting as if I was balancing
a book on my head was one of these positions, so Bonnie never
commented on my occasional, apathetic appearing posture. You could say
we shared an assumption about it.
My review included the following thoughts…
In the earliest classes, Kha- lib explained that the personas Bonnie
channelled weren‘t the only entities to teach in our twentieth century. Not
to impugn other invaluable materials, but at this stage in our development
he said the works of Jane Roberts (The Seth series) would help us to better
