"Those who are unaware of their true power have chosen that path to
discover the validity of faith in another way. There is always a reason.
Those who otherwise remained tethered to the social conformation of their
time and place do not, as of yet, have the energy to embrace a new way of
thinking. But they will. The Universe is pro-active, never more so than at
this time of convergence when a centuries-long lesson may be faced in one
life time."
"Were we always like this? You know, pretty stupid."
"At another time we will speak of our explorations of your
development."
"Mine or mankind‘s?"
"We will deal with both, for it is your quest to reveal such
knowledge."
"You‘re sending me back now?"
"It is time for school."
I woke up with this phrase, in my mother‘s voice, cycling in my
mind.
*When I later asked Bonnie about this split perception, she said I was in the
lessons of Four— a Kabala designation that vibrated to mystery. Those engaged
in the four challenge , she said, are seldom known by anyone, even themselves. It
is blossoming destiny and wisdom born of tria l, and it encompasses the unusual,
such as double man / double woman experiences. The overt evidence of this, she
said, was that I saw myself in my dreams. Less obvious indications were signs
for her own lessons, such as the woman with the double stroller, the elderly
couple, exactly $20, and the panhandler humming the Trooper song, "Two for
the Show." She would explain this more fully when it was time.
_____Greed_____
I arrived at Bonnie‘s house the next morning, excited to tell her about
my dream, but she greeted me with a tearfully warm smile and a hot cup
of coffee on the table. Lipstick on the rim of a second cup told me that
Bonnie‘s coffee was not untouched, but nearly so, as we sat in her two-
place kitchen nook. Sliding her cup aside, she told me what had happened.
As she usually did on weekend mornings, she was pouring a second
cup of coffee while having a chat with Kha- lib, and he asked her if she
needed it. She said she did not, but she wanted it. K ha- lib asked her why
this was, to which she replied with the same reasons any of us would
