Eclipse of the Moon
and talked of everything under the sun
and finally even myself, reduced to normal,
forgetting Amelie was anything
but Amelie, and she, being there, and listening,
as usual, said, "Sometimes it takes more time
for me to absorb some statements and respond."
She also said she thought things like this needed
to be said so that the other speaker
would understand that she was listening,
and would respond, but that it took more time.
An example of a quick response
to a truth statement is that I replied,
Of course. I think that people understand that.
In New York this Saturday Natasha
showed me these tests of time and transformations.
I had not seen Natasha in four years.
She has a child now, left psychology
to learn cognition, as I'm leaving English
to do linguistics. What she said helps prove
Chomsky is right, and transformations real.
Yet when I called tonight, and Amelie
said that these tests confirmed her intuitions,
I said, though speechless, nothing more confirming
than, Yes. What all my heart and memory
confirmed underwater, remained, and was unsaid.
I thought of Roy's answering, when I asked,
after some new, departmental miscalculation,
"Why is it all so fucked up?" "I don't know,"
with love and happiness, "but it is," and I
thought, Then I'm right that all our schedules
and he turned and walked away, and left me
suddenly lovingly and happily knowing
we meant everything, and to each other.
Can I not say, the next time, tomorrow
to Amelie, "It's true?" We know a question
takes many transformations and much time,
and truth statements and affirmations, little.
I can be more like Roy and more like Amelie
now that even Natasha, who, remember,
was in psychology four years ago,
and had not child, is more like me. That's true,
Birds are canaries and also other birds.
For I'd respond more quickly, I laughed to Amelie,
To the false statement, and I'd say it's true.
My old psychiatrist once said to me,
sweat pouring from his metaphorical brow,
"I could say the moon's made of green cheese