then, I shall do my duty, whatever it may seem to me. And then, to follow your
Lordship's wishes I shall hold myself at your disposal to render an account to
you, when and where you will." His voice broke a little, and he went on with a
voice full of pity.
"But I beseech you, do not go forth in anger with me. In a long life of acts which
were often not pleasant to do, and which sometimes did wring my heart, I have
never had so heavy a task as now. Believe me that if the time comes for you to
change your mind towards me, one look from you will wipe away all this so sad
hour, for I would do what a man can to save you from sorrow. Just think. For why
should I give myself so much labor and so much of sorrow? I have come here
from my own land to do what I can of good, at the first to please my friend John,
and then to help a sweet young lady, whom too, I come to love. For her, I am
ashamed to say so much, but I say it in kindness, I gave what you gave, the
blood of my veins. I gave it, I who was not, like you, her lover, but only her
physician and her friend. I gave her my nights and days, before death, after
death, and if my death can do her good even now, when she is the dead
UnDead, she shall have it freely." He said this with a very grave, sweet pride, and
Arthur was much affected by it.
He took the old man's hand and said in a broken voice, "Oh, it is hard to think of
it, and I cannot understand, but at least I shall go with you and wait."