Sittin here lookin at the screen
Wishin I could wipe the slate clean
Thinkin about the past and what was lost
Thinkin about everything it cost
The price I paid for being stupid
By looking everywhere for cupid
Finding it in all the wrong places
Knowing that I have to look into their faces
Seeing their hurt
Thinkin of myself as nothing but dirt
Why I went the way I did I'll never know
Cause lookin back I know it was low
So here I sit time after time
Knowin what I did was a crime
Cryin a million tears
Feels like I've been cryin for years
Don't know why I'm still alive
Or how, mentally, I survive
I hate myself for all I've done
How could I have thought I was having fun?
Sittin here lookin at the screen
Wishin I could wipe the slate clean
Not sure why you love me
At times I think you should be free
Of my stupidity and past
That you should just run really fast
And find a life that's better than what I can give
To find a place of happiness to live
Because you deserve the best
And I feel like I just make you stressed
Yet I'm grateful that you're in my life today
And count my blessings every day.
